Metzner family, circa 1921: Elsie, Bruno, Alfred, Sophie, Rudolf, Martha (left to right) |
A wind that could tear off shingles
whips
over the ridge all night,
leaving
a sky clean and blue as an Alpine lake.
The last
few leaves cling low to the maple trees,
the
newly bare tree tops scraping the sky.
The
sound of an ax chopping wood comes up the hollow.
My
uncle’s spirit is chopping wood, a chore that’s never done.
The
ancient and everyday repetitions of labor-
splitting
firewood, canning fruit,
patching clothes, knitting hats-
the
ancestors nudge us, saying “listen to the wind!”,
reminding
us to keep moving, prepare for winter.
No
tender admonitions here!
Grossmutter
comes flying over the trees in a vision,
braving
vast expanses of the sea,
four
children, one just a baby, wrapped in her skirts,
my
father pushing out from her embrace
to gaze
beyond the ship’s deck to the New World.
“Fly!”,
she says to me. “What holds you back?
None of
us know what that first step will bring.
It is
your Grossmutter in the spirit world and I tell you-
the
world changes shape with every step you take.
Just
go!”
A russet
maple leaf lets go, and spins out of sight.
Nana
appears.
She has thrown off her rose-colored apron
and put
down her wooden spoon.
She is
twenty-five, pin curled and all brand new,
eyes
opened wide.
“Granddaughter,
yes, go! With each step,
the
world rearranges itself before you,
a
Rubik’s Cube, a house of mirrors.
Take
that step! As we live and breathe,
other
souls live and breathe too,
and
arrange their lives to respond to you.
Step
into the dance! The music you call,
and the
next, and the next under your gaze will fall.”
At this
she spit-polishes her new red shoes,
steps on
board the trolley car,
smiles
wide at the driver,
and
spins off into the skies.
Annelinde Metzner
October 28, 2009
Today I'm once more honoring my Tante Elsie, pictured above with my father Rudolf, uncle Alfred, aunt Martha and my grandparents, Sophie and Bruno, shortly before their arrival in America. This weekend Elsie is celebrating their arrival date, February 22, 1923, when the family arrived in New York City, reuniting with father Bruno and sister Martha who had come earlier to pave the way.
My maternal grandmother, Louise Soldano (Nana), who appears in the second half of the poem! |
Elsie today in her winter hat, at one hundred years old. |
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